Earlier this week in
Margaret Wheatley’s book Restoring Sanity, I read:
…this current culture, with
people locked down in fear and self-protection, is destroying our
relationships, our work, and our future. It is easier to withdraw than to step
forward. It is safer to protect oneself than to be visible. … the current
culture cannot create the conditions for these behaviours [generosity,
creativity, kindness]. Although they are natural to the human spirit, this
culture has normalized greed, aggression, and life-destroying behaviours. In
this ruthless environment, what’s needed is not individual acts of heroism, but
island communities where sanity prevails.
(Pg 15)
This morning, I am thankful
for this place which for me feels like an island community. A place where I can
come and be myself, where I can hear something more wholesome than what I hear
in the world, a place where I am encouraged and challenged to be generous,
creative, and kind.
I spent time this week contemplating
what I am most thankful for. I started with harvest and apples, honey and
autumn colours. Pumpkin spiced lattes, warm sweaters, crisp air, golden
sunshine, the Hunter’s moon; and thanksgiving supper.
More of a Spirit spiced
answer led me to be thankful for: this island of sanity, Love and community,
faith and friendship, generosity and kindness. And yet, my thankful list seemed
pale. I didn’t feel satisfied. Contemplating that for which I am most thankful
moved beyond a list and naming exercise. I found that I wasn’t satisfied until
I reached the why I am thankful; the why I am generally optimistic, hopeful,
and full of gratitude.
Before I share the core –
the heart- of my gratitude, let me be honest. Wheatley’s quote, naming the
ruthless environment in which we live, not shying from stating that this
culture has normalized greed, aggression, and life-destroying behaviours
deeply bothers me. It bothers me because I hear a truth, a truth that there is
always at the ready a power to overshadow and
extinguish belief in all that is good, and kind, and beautiful.
This was on my mind as I
read the Thanksgiving scripture from Deuteronomy. It is a beautiful text of
God’s abundance and the human response of giving thanks by offering the first
fruits of harvest. The ritual includes a recitation of remembering identity forming
moments: once being displaced; once being slaves; once being refugees; and then
as a people finding home, freedom, and abundance.
But the reading is not so simple.
It is about a people giving thanks. It is about a covenant people returning the
first of their harvest to the Temple, with prayer, and recognition that Creator
has provided. The first fruits, according to the covenant, are brought together
and there is community feasting and celebration. Included in the covenant is a
redistribution of the harvest with those in society who are hungry and in need.
The covenant was to practice life-giving behaviours, behaviours that at the
core were relational, loving God, loving neighbour, loving creation.
What is not so simple is
that this thanksgiving came at a cost. The Hebrews, fleeing slavery, exiting
Egypt, moved across the dessert, and upon entering the promised land, possessed
the land. The land was not empty. There where an array of peoples, who were
settled in the land, with families and farms and cities. To make ‘the promised
land’ the people already on the land were pushed off the land, or killed, some remained
to assimilate, some were used as cheap labour. There was continued tension and
war, read the books of Kings and Chronicles for some of that history. There is
thanksgiving for some and suffering for others.
Present day Israel and
Palestinian Territories -peoples- some who have lived on the land for centuries,
refugees resettled, land given and taken after the Holocaust, armed boundaries,
the illegal acquisition of land – all in a land where three faiths have
communities and sacred places. Faiths whose people are called to life-giving
behaviours. Called to thanksgiving and the giving of first fruits, they live in
a reality ready to overshadow and extinguish belief in all that is good, and
kind, and beautiful.
Thanksgiving -- in a world that feeds on greed, aggression,
and life-destroying behaviours.
I am thankful for my health,
would I be thankful in sickness? Thankful for freedom, could I be thankful in bondage?
I am thankful for peace, would I be thankful in war? I am thankful for home,
would I remain thankful without? Would gratitude remain in times of intense
suffering? Would prayers of thanks be given, hope be persistent, and optimism remain,
if everything were to fall apart?
My contemplation of that
which I am most thankful for, came to a turning point when I realized that thanks,
hope, and optimism would not remain, if I only had a list – no matter how full
of gratitude I am – My whole list was really superficial thanksgiving. Important
for sure! and helpful in fueling life-giving behaviours, but as items named could
be taken away, lost, or broken, so to thanksgiving could drift away.
If I am honest with you,
there is fear – it niggles back here somewhere touch
back of head and sometimes here touch
heart that I my thanksgiving and
hope will succumb to the shadow of life-destroying behaviours.
Alone this is a strong
possibility.
Together as an Island of Sanity
that possibility fades.
And this is where my contemplation
of that for which I am most thankful rested – the heart of my gratitude, the
heart of my being – the WHY I am thankful and hopeful and optimistic.
I am thankful for Mystery (with
a capital M) and Word (with a capital W). I rest in both. I grow in
both. I live in both. We live and move and have our being in both.
Some might say we are
deceiving ourselves or are living in a fairy tale. I don’t believe this. Among
the stories passed from generation to generation of those who embraced Mystery
and the Word, they lived life-giving behaviours under the power of catastrophic
circumstances. The letter to the Philippians is an example. In this Western-most-front
of the Pauline community, opposed and threatened by the Roman Empire, Paul in
prison and facing possible death, the community is fracturing as strong individuals
who disagree are exhibiting life-destroying behaviours. Paul reminds the
community who they are and why they are who they are with a hymn in chapter 2,
recalling Jesus -the Word- and God, the Mystery- and how taking human form
humbled himself and became obedient to the point of death, even death on a
cross. Paul pleads with individuals not of the same mind to be of the same
mind in the Lord. They share the same love, return to the heart of the matter,
the core of the community’s thanksgiving, hope, and life together. As an Island
in a world of greed, aggression, and life-destroying behaviours, Paul centres and
encourages the community of Philippi to be that Island of Sanity.
Paul writes:
Rejoice in the Lord always,
and again I will say, Rejoice.
Let your gentleness be known
to everyone. The Lord is near.
Do not worry about anything,
but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your
requests be made known to God.
And the peace of God, which
surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ
Jesus.
The word of the Lord.
Paul is not finished. With
more enthusiasm, with more Spirit-spice Paul adds:
Finally, beloved, whatever
is true, whatever is honourable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever
is pleasing, whatever is commendable,
if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think
about these things.
Keep on doing the things
that you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, and the God of
peace with be with you.
Word of God, word of life.
My wife died silently in my arms four years ago on Thanksgiving. I was grateful that her physical suffering and mental anguish were over. I was grateful to have been with this beautiful woman for 34 years. I was thankful that so many friends missed her and comforted me. I was thankful the following Christmas that she had a friend gift me with a bottle of my favorite rum--from her. I was thankful while sitting on the back deck shortly after on a foggy October evening when a whisp of fog mysteriously drifted over me as if she were saying goodbye on her new journey. I am thankful that I have no regrets on this Thanksgiving Day.
ReplyDeletethank you for sharing. Thank you for the tears that rolled down my cheeks. Thank you for speaking grace to me.
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