Thursday, July 18, 2013

Prayer on Feeling



Creator God,
This morning we come before you to offer up our yesterday and to give thanks for the potential of today.
We pause to remember yesterday...
We remember our feelings through the day:
...we faced sadness...
...we felt disappointment...
...we were disgusted...
...we were scared...
...we were surprised...
...we were glad...    ...we let go of these feelings and give them to you.
We pray this morning for all people and all creation and all the feelings they hold:
...for those who are sad... disappointed... disgusted... scared....surprised...glad...

May we look to this day with gladness; a gift from you.  With Your gladness, may we gladden the world around us, by daring to enter into the feelings of others. Your grace and love be present as we seek to build relationships for the healing of the world.
AMEN.

Please feel free to use this prayer or other items you find on this blog.  I would be interested though in a quick comment saying that it was used, or remade, or what ideas may have been spurred from what has been read here.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Holding the Hand of Someone Dying

Holding the hand of someone who is dying is part of every pastor's experience.  This week once again I have been humbled by the gift of holding hands.
It is at the end of holding hands for the visit, right before leaving, that the dying seems to grasp the hand holding it in a different way; a way that expresses feeling, encapsulates faith, passes hope, and conveys a peace that surpasses understanding.  It is a letting go movement that says, "All is well with my soul. Be not afraid.  I have glimpsed the other side and I am better than fine.  Be not sad for me."
Mark Nepo wrote: "Sometimes we would do better to admit the heart works best in mime."  This has become my bedside mantra, when with those who are dying and their families.  Words seem futile  and they are unable to express the depth of relationship.
Yesterday I understood the variety, the subtle changes, and the movement of the touch between my hand and that of the one dying.  A book of a million words was passed in minutes through touch.
What passed in the holding of hands was peace, thank-yous, blessings, a remembering of intimate moments along the journey, farwells, and a sharing of love that will never end.
Rest in peace dear one, until we once again hold hands.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Sermon Fodder

This past week was the Joint Assembly of the  Anglican Church of Canada and the Evangelical Lutheran Church in Canada.  It was a week of laughter, tears, fellowship, worship, and work.
Many things were learned and shared at this event. Over time some of the week will be shared through sermons at the Lutheran Church of the Resurrection.  Be prepared for sermons based on the following:
* A Dozen Years together (Full  Communion) -time to be a baker's dozen
* Quoting Martin Junge, General Secretary of the LWF: "Salvation -not for sale; Humans - not for Sale; Creation - not for sale".  Lutheran reformation is a global citizen!
* Quoting Jamie Scott, from Truth and Reconciliation  Committee: "Reconciliation is the gift we are invited to bring to the altar."
* Thoughts from World Coucil of Churches president, Christopher Dreizing: "We, the body of Christ, are in cardiac crisis.  We need a jolt!"; "Baptism is not about sin management."; "ecumaniac"
*thoughts of a table mate: "Definition of forgiveness - letting go of all hope for a better past."
* Archbishop Fred Hiltz: "bringing about those things for which we pray."
* from Acts 9, consider the word...MEANWHILE
* Quoting World Council of Churches General Secretary, who on arrival at US customs is asked: "why are you going to all the worng places?"
Also sermon themes will include:
-edge habitat
-the 34 yr labour of love to bring the Inuit a Bible in their own language
-ethical resource extraction
-homelessness
-clean water for all

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Grace in Pinterest

Grace is found in creating.
Today I only had a few minutes to set aside to do something creative.  A creative activity allows for my spirit to be renewed, think and see in a fresh way, and to engage in something that resets my ability to be optimistic; filled with hope.
 I had 10 mins., which was not enough time to get out paint or crayons.  I decided to try something I had not done as a creative endeavour before, although it has given me a certain degree of happiness.  I went on Pinterest, choose a new topic, and created a board.
Today I was thinking of rain, maybe because it is going to rain for the next three days.  I found and pinned images of rain -ones that were artistic, beautiful, curious, expectant, renewing, different, awe-inspiring.
My 10 mins. felt good, with no mess to clean up.
I encourage you to try it.  Pick a  topic.  Put it in the Pinterest search engine and repin the pins that give you a good feeling.  It is amazing what you will find, who you will connect with, and the "ah" you are left with.
May grace find you in your pinning. 

Monday, June 10, 2013

The Grace of Wing-backed Chairs

These chairs were a gift from my husband's parents.  They have found a  home in our guest room.
What is so special about wing-backed chairs is that their arms are always open waiting and inviting the viewer to come and take a seat.  They are also great for posture and these ones have seats that are just right, not to hard, not to soft.  This morning they invited me to come, sit, and curl up;  to relax into their embrace.  With a cup of "happy coffee" (fairtrade) in hand, I was able to work for a number of hours collecting data for a chapter of a Doctor of Ministry thesis.  Comfortable, surrounded by grace - what a way to start the morning!!!

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Can a Vacation Be Called Successful?

It is the end of vacation.
Dare it be said that is was a success?
During regular time, it is rare that upon waking a recount of dreams can be made.
This morning, it was scene after ridiculous scene.
The mind is re-aligned.
A miracle!

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

The other day this poem was used at the Annual General Meeting of the Halifax Community Chaplaincy Society -a board that provides a chaplain who works with ex-offenders and their families.  The chaplain's closing prayer were these:

Fall in Love Prayer -Fr.Pedro Arrupe

Nothing is more practical than finding God, that is,
than falling in love in a quite absolute final way.
What you are in love with,
what seizes your imagination,
will affect everything.
It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning,
what you do with your evenings,
how you spend your weekend,
what you read, who you know,
what breaks your heart,
and what amazes you with joy and gratitude.
Fall in love,
stay in love,
and it will decide everything.

A touching that prayer that has and continues to digest for those who heard it that day.

Sunday, May 19, 2013



Pentecost  C-   May 19th, 2013 – Rev. Kimberlynn McNabb

As you most of you know, this morning Pastor Kimber is running her first full marathon.  She prepared this sermon while finishing her training, and found that there were lots of connections to be made between running and the festival of Pentecost.  For our inspiration she has placed her training shoes in front of the altar.  Note the colour; they are the same as the ones she is running in right now:   FIRE BERRY.

If you had asked Pastor Kimber in her 20’s, if she thought she would ever run, let alone run a marathon, she would have told you that you had holes in your head.  Growing up an uncoordinated child, clumsy beyond belief, one who ran into things and fell all the time; one who was not adept at sport; and who had asthma and allergies, often huffing and puffing from a quick walk...who would have thought running 42kms or 26 miles was a possibility.
If you had asked the disciples in the fifty days after Jesus’ death, if they thought that they would spread out from Jerusalem and enter all the known world with the story of Jesus’ death and resurrection; they would likely have told you that you were a dreamer with ridiculous ideas.  Most of them growing up around the sea of Galilee, fishermen; good at physical work, not so adept at public speaking; knowing Aramaic and being able to take their turn reading the ancient Hebrew of the scripture scrolls in the synagogue...who would have thought it possible that they would preach to a large crowd, so that the crowd heard the message in their own languages, and that their words were persuasive enough to cause thousands to want to be baptized.

For eight years, Pastor Kimber has been training for a yearly race in the BlueNose.  Since January she upped her training, running 30-75kms a week.  She took time to stretch and rest, to strengthen her core with Pilates, to soak in Epsom salt baths, to imagine herself running the route, broke in a new pair of running shoes, did speed and hill work, carb loaded, and focused her mind. 
For three years, the disciples have been training for the day when Jesus would not be with them, not that they knew they were in training.  They took time away from their occupations to walk with a teacher for three years.  They strengthened their knowledge and practice of the Jewish faith.  They learned to interpret the Law in a renewed way.  They had been taught to pray, to confront the religious leaders who chose to debate with Jesus, to talk of God’s kingdom with new images, and practiced the ministry of healing.  They had been sent off in twos to preach the Good News and then come back to report to Jesus. 

How many years have you been attending church?
For this many years, you have been in training. You have lived among God’s faithful people by being part of this community.  You come to church to hear the Word of God and partake in communion.  You have learned the Lord’s Prayer, the Ten Commandments, and have read the Bible. You have nurtured your faith.  You worship and pray.  You have participated in community.  In this way you have learned to trust God, to care for others and the world God made, and to work for justice and peace.

And it is in the training stage that many get stuck.
There are runners who run and never enter a race, giving all kinds of reasons and excuses why races are not for them.  There are all kinds of disciples of Jesus, people in the church, who believe and never enter into preaching, giving all kinds of reasons and excuses why preaching and telling the story is not for them.

To this I would say, put on some “fire berry” shoes. You are done training.  Go out and be whelmed by the Holy Spirit.
That first 10k race, or the first half marathon, and hopefully the full race –although Pastor Kimber doesn’t know for sure until after today -gives a runner what is called a runner’s high.  It is the experience of running with so many others, having the crowd cheering –people you don’t even know; it is going out and having fun after so much hard work, it is seeing the fruits of one’s labour;  it is living the training  in a way that invigorates, stimulates, and makes one feel good all over.  It is an experience that causes the runner to return to training with renewed passion, with a desire to run more races, to experience as often as possible that “feel good” moment.
That first Pentecost gave the disciples, now called Apostles, a higher calling and purpose.  It was the experience of the Holy Spirit, filling them through wind and tongues of fire, in the presence of a whole crowd.  It was speaking together of the amazing Good News that God had conquered death, that God’s kingdom had  come and will continue to come.  It was sharing hope with those who were open to hear.  It was living their training in a way that invigorated, stimulated, and made them feel good all over.  They were so inspired that Pentecost was not a one time event.  The Apostles kept preaching, teaching, and healing with passion.
That first time you step out from being a disciple, a learner, and move to being an Apostle –a bearer of the story, not just in actions but in words –what an experience.  Have you had this experience?
It would be one that would be so exhilarating that you would want to replicate the feeling again and again.  You wouldn’t be able to contain your excitement, joy, and need to tell another.  You would be passionate; living and breathing the Good News.

The hardest part of running is putting on the shoes and going out the door.
When in the house one can convince themselves of the reasons not to go: tired, too much to do, someone might see my butt wiggle, the weather isn’t quite right.  But once you’re outside, with the door locked behind you and you take the first few steps, you just keep going.
The hardest part of being an Apostle is getting out there by putting aside all the excuses.

Come race day, in fact weeks in advance, Pr. Kimber’s head works overtime, figuring out the exact combination of clothing to wear for every scenario of weather that might be encountered on race day.
She then, the night before the race, checks the weather, lays out her clothing choice, sets out the safety pins ready to bin on the race bib, and has pre- and post-race clothing in a bag.  Runners all have their pre-race rituals.  Maybe this is where disciples get stuck.  We have rituals for training, for being in this place called church, but have not bothered to picture ourselves out in the world as Apostles.

The last leadership event Pr. Kimber went to, one of the conversations was around, after feeling a call from God, what is it that gives leaders a sense of authority and a voice, so that they speak the truth in their places of service?  At the top of the list were phrases like: “putting on big boy or girl panties”, “having a power suit”, “wearing devil kicking boots.”  We’ve all been called through baptism and called to vocations of bringing God’s reign to earth.  Moving from being a disciple to an Apostle is really all in the head, and it has to do with perception.

Pr.Kimber has laced up FIRE berry shoes this morning.  She is going to run like fire.  Her bright coloured shoes leading the way, setting the mood, and the tempo.

What are you waiting for Apostles?  Lace up your fire berry shoes...shoes whelmed by the Holy Spirit; and step outside.  Trust that the Spirit is outside waiting to catch your feet on fire, and to give you the confidence and words to bewilder the crowd, such that a fiery passion for God grows in the hearts of the world. 

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

42 km Freak out

42kms is the distance of a full marathon, an experience I will partake in on May 19th.
There has been a lot of training with the longest run being 37k, completed a week ago Monday.
Since then Windsor Pilates has happened twice and three relaxed puny runs.  You see this runner had a deep chested cold.  What this has meant, as one is not to run when the ailment is below the throat, is that the kms of a regular taper have not happened. When one is a person who follows a schedule to the "t", it has caused a few moments of "FREAK OUT".

Now before races of shorter lengths, I always seconded guessed the training and freaked out a little then too.  But this is 42 kms!

There was grace to be found today, that finally, when the puny run was done...more might have been done.  No lung was about to be hacked up.  The ribs and belly weren't sore from harder breathing.
The race is coming and if the cold keeps shedding as it it, perhaps it will be the best run ever, all because myself will feel healthy and free.

Then running can become not worrying about overdoing it or coughing, but rather return to a mediation.  This is my prayer!

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Fear is Sin



“At that time the festival of Dedication took place in Jerusalem.  It was winter, and Jesus was walking in the temple, in the portico of Solomon.”

Jesus is going about his everyday life, strolling through one of the arched walkways running along the side of the Temple.  There were others there as well; others who were hoping that Hanukkah might just inspire Jesus to stand up and be the rebel leader who would lead the fight against the Romans, just like the Maccabees had done with the Greeks 200 years before.
This is not the plan.

After the news that followed the Boston marathon, I came across a devotion by Delia Smith entitled, “The God of Fear and Anxiety”, causing me to reflect more deeply about fear.             
She comments that this god lurks in the shadows waiting for one to make a mistake.  The god of fear and anxiety is born in peoples’ minds at a young age and it causes a hunger to hear, see, and be part of overwhelming unfolding events, such that the fear runs wild, often turning to terror, snowballing into a force all its own – a force that destroys hope, makes people desperate, and breaks relationships.

“Fear [she writes] is the most inhibiting of human evils:  it is indeed the only thing we have to fear in seeking a relationship with the real God.  It is significant that, in the Scriptures, almost every encounter with God is prefaced with the words ‘Do not be afraid’.”   

Upon reflection, could the suggestion be made that fear is sin?  For me there is a connection as my basic working definition of sin is separation from God, broken relationship.
The events of Boston show two reactions to a fear filled event.  There were those who instantly went into action, -actions that were relational -entering the pain of others, caring for the wounded, directing people from harms way, offering whatever help was needed.  There are those who continue to find ways to cope with an enormous random act of violence; raising funds, choosing to run in solidarity, offering messages of hope – activities that are building relationship.
There is another side.  The media blitzing the fear, the terror –social media continuing with angry messages of retribution; death to the perpetrators – as if the violence of one death will put an end to violence and fear.  Here there is no room for reconciliation of relationship.  There is no thought of offering a perspective and action grown from hope; from the words ‘Do not be afraid’.

Jesus was walking in the portico of Solomon; living his everyday life, celebrating the festival of Hanukkah.
Based on his conversation with those who gathered around him in the Temple, he did not buy into the fear mongering of his day and the idea of retribution against the Romans.
They ask Jesus, “how long will you keep us in suspense? If you are the Messiah, tell us plainly.”  Jesus replies, “I have told you, and you do not believe.  The works that I do in my Father’s name testify to me.”   These works are about building, growing, fostering, encouraging, renewing, enlightening, promoting, prompting, healing, facilitating, guiding, entering RELATIONSHIP!
Taking a journey through John’s Gospel and the story before Jesus is found walking in the portico of Solomon, we encounter Jesus turning water into wine, having deep conversations with people like Nicodemus, talking with the Samaritan woman at the well, healing a nobleman’s son, making whole a paralytic man, feeding 5000 with 5 loaves and 2 fish, teaching and walking among the common people, entering into debate with the Pharisees, forgiving the sins of a woman caught in adultery, curing the blind man – all these works are about RELATIONSHIP!

There is a lot of fear in our world today.  There is fear that has turned into terror.  There is fear that is currently snowballing –turning people to anger, the distrust of others, paralyzing and isolating people from one another.  There is fear, fueled by growing anxiety, as parts of the world who thought they were in control and had no need of community realize that science, knowledge, money, power, and independence are not enough –and in fact are nothing, when facing uncontrollable, random circumstances.

 ‘Do not buy into fear mongering”. ‘Do not be afraid’.
For amidst fear, there are communities of hope, actions of relationship, the garnering of light.
In response to the fear of her time, in the conviction of a living God of unconditional love, Tabitha devoted her life to good works and acts of charity, including weaving and the making of clothing. 
In response to the fear of their time, in the conviction of a living God of unconditional love, the widows –Tabitha’s community-worked together to support and provide for each other.  They cared for one another in life and in death.
In response to the fear of his time, in the conviction of a living God of unconditional love, Peter entered the pain of the widows, prayed, and spoke to Tabitha; giving her his hand, he helped her up.  Continuing to make relationship, Peter stays at the house of Simon, a tanner -one unclean according to the Law.
The shedding of light, the perpetuation of hope within this community of Jesus followers, was such that their actions to each other were seen and felt in the community and many believed in the Lord.

Fri. I was on my way to a meeting and passed our prayer garden.  It has been raked, birdfeeders hung, and a bird bath in place for the season.  Amidst the news of the week, the troubles of the people walking by, fears of what this world is coming to...the garden was a moment for pause; it was loud, teeming with life, and emanating light/hope.  The crocus in a wide variety of colours where shining vibrantly against the still sleeping ground.  The trees were full of chick-a-dees, playing, and singing...’do not be afraid’.

This week take to heart the words currently in the church sign: your mission – spring up hope.
In response to the fear of our time, in the conviction of a living God of unconditional love, practice repelling fear.  Create and enter relationship, often and without ceasing.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Resurrection Images

http://sue.edison-swift.com/easterhorse/
SURPRISE!
Who would have thought that an Easter card could make one chuckle?
Who would have thought that a  little girl's drawing could send one spinning into theological reflection?

I have never thought "outside the box", so to speak, on images and symbols used at Easter.
Chicks, lambs, bunnies, flowers, crosses, chocolate, open tombs, caterpillar/butterflies, Easter trees made from forsythia branches, eggs...but an Easter horse.

The Easter horse is just a horse but because of the place and time it is presented it is a surprise, a pregnant pause as one's brain tries to make a connection.  My brain has not made a connection -yet- maybe never; perhaps this is the beauty of the quirky creature.
As a Christian I live in the now and the not yet, knowing and unknowing; in a quirky kind of hope that sees God somehow in a red Easter horse.  I can feel the hope, the intrigue, the possibility of exploring an understanding...I'm exicted.  Please don't ask me to explain for I can not put it into words.  Let me just imagine myself on the horse taking me to wherever resurrection wishes to lead.

An Invitation to Life

  Imagine that you have received more than one invitation to the same thing. Each invitation was unique. Each stunningly put together. One w...